Over all, today was a pretty good day. Jake actually did his homework without arguing. Deb brought home some more outdoor furniture. A table and three chairs. Now I think we have enough to have a rather large party.

I'm still feeling pretty scared most of the time. I think it is starting to sink in that I gave up on everything I needed, to stop the arguing. I kept telling her that I needed to know for sure that she was giving us 100%, and she kept telling me that what she was doing should have showed me that. I just feel like I'm fucking my self by giving up to quickly. I mean, I still don't know for sure. Yet, I can't take any more pointless arguing. Maybe once we get rid of the stuff hidden around the house, I'll feel a little better. I hope so.