...worst day yet

We had our worst day yet. I told her that I wanted proof. She said okay tell me how. I told her what I thought would give me some, and she said no.

I'm having a hard time with that. She wanted to send a letter, but I think the time for that has past. I'm not giving up, but I need to be standing on solid ground before I can climb out of this hole I'm in.

I'm still to confused to express all of my feelings.