More optimistic...

We had another long talk yesterday, that turned into an argument, that turned into her jumping into the van and speeding away. Once she came home, we talked some more. I think she was able to make some valid points of things in her behavior that I had not noticed. And I hope that I was able to make some valid points that will lead her to give me some proof. All in all, I do feel more optimistic than I did. I really want more than anything to move forward and leave all of this in the past where it belongs, but there are a few things that need to be taken care of first. One BIG problem we have right now is that our biggest needs are in conflict with each other. So when we have a serious talk we end up going in circles, saying the same things to each other over, and over again with our frustration growing with every round. Her biggest need is to move on and not look back. My biggest need is for her to prove to me that he knows that she is unavailable to him. Once I know this for sure I know I will have a much easier time with moving forward. But, she is unable to do this because she is afraid to look back to make it known to me. Because of this conflict, we have a very hard time relating to what the other needs. But, I do feel confident that together, we can learn more about each other. To the point that fulfilling each others needs is second nature and automatic. I feel myself looking forward, once again to a day when this is all a distant memory. Not forgotten, but seen more as a learning experience.

On a lighter note. I seem to have made a few new "internet" friends in the last few days. I want to say hi to Amanda and Stacy. Please feel free to comment on anything you like. Don't be shy. That goes for anyone else as well. Leave a comment. Tell me that I'm an idiot or a genius, either way, it's nice to know that someone is out there.