A weekend at Ma's

Friday we went up to my mother's house in western NY state. It's about a 6 hour ride, but with the van, the boys each get their own seat. So, it was almost painless. I don't think I had to yell back at them once for the entire ride. We arrived about 9:30 pm friday night so we just said hello and went to bed.

Saturday we went to the pool, and met my sister there with some of her kids. We had a great time. I think it was the first time my boys were in a pool that deep, with a diving board. They both did very well. Swimming like troopers.

Sunday, we went to my brother's house for lunch, then we all went to Stony Brook State Park. An awsome park. There is a stream/river that you walk up in and come to several waterfalls. The water is not very deep but in a few places it is raging quite well. The kids had fun standing under the falls and sliding down some of the naturally formed water slides.

When we got home from Stony Brook, it was time to head over to Havah's graduation/going away party. It was pretty fun. Lots of people, most of whome I didn't know. But there were lots of desserts, and all the people were friendly.

Monday we didn't do much. Sat around Ma's in the morning, had some lunch, took a nap. We were going to stop by my sister's house for a quick goodbye, but we ended up staying for supper. We made homemade pizza and sat around in the backyard, just chit chatting, and playing with the kids and the dog untill 8:30pm. Then we headed home.

All in all, it was a fun weekend.

As for my relationship problems...........

Last week we had two serious talks. I have yet to see any changes. I guess she needs some time to think about it. I wish she would give me some sort of indecation as to what she is thinking. Is she trying to comeup with a way to show me that she wants to be here? Is she thinking about trying to rebuild some trust? Or is she just trying to put it off as long as she can? I just don't know. The only thing I do know is that I can't trust her any more today than I could a week ago. I wish that would change! Maybe.....some day she will come to me and want to talk. Want to tell me what she is thinking. I can't go to her anymore. I've told her everything there is to tell about me.

Time will tell, I guess........ I just wish it didn't take so long.