It's Been A While...

I haven't been able to add an entry in a while. I want this to be a daily record, but what can you do.

Let's see....

Friday I had to work the car wash. It was fairly buisy so the time went pretty quick. While I was at work Deb took the kids and the neighbors to Silver Sands again. They took grandma with them this time. They wanted to get her mind off of her father's passing that morning. She flew down to Equidor the next morning for his fuleral and such.

Saturday we hung out in Gina's yard and tried to get the pool straightened out. It didn't work so we just let the kids swim in it half full and sat in the sun. Later I took everyone out to Hometown Buffet for supper. Brad spent the day at Nanna's house 'cause he was being real whiner that morning.

We STILL haven't had a chance to talk. It's no ones fault directly. I don't know what to say. But I know I need to say something. I still need to KNOW it's over. She seems to have kicked her "happy face" into overdrive. It makes me feel good. It makes me feel welcome and loved. But when I have time alone I still feel scared and alone. It is worst at bed time when I am the only one in the house awake. There is nothing to do but think about the future. Some times I want to wake her up, just to tell her that I love her. But that would be silly. No sence in that.