I don't know what to think...

I really wish that I could read her mind. Then maybe I could understand what is holding her back. All I can do is make educated guesses, and so far that has given me no reasurance at all.

When I add up all that I see in her actions and in her lack of action, it tells me that she is still in love with him. And as long as she is still in love with him, she will never commit to me.

But do I really want to be only second best?
Can I live out my remaining years with her knowing that her being there was the doing of another man?

I need to call Pete. If I'm not around she might be able to either pull the knife out........or push it all the way in.

Either way, it will be progress.