Happy Face...

Yesterday I had an easier time of looking happy, putting on a happy face you might say. The pain is still fresh and she never had a good explaination. She is still mad at me for "looking over her shoulder" but what else am I supposed to do. It's not like she has given me a reason to trust her yet. She has not ended it with him yet. I know she is not having a relationship with him but I think she wants to. I think she still sees him as her knight in shining armor, her savior. And that is why she wont end it. She wont even read that paper I printed for her.

I hope I can find something to pass the time today. With her gone all day with her parents, I have nothing to do but think. Right now my mind is racing, in overdrive. Maybe, Gina and I will take the kids to the park, that will help.
Kill a few hours hopefully.............
Bye Bye for now.........