Another busy day...
Today turned out to be another busy day. Shortly after getting the boys from school I had to meet my ex wife at Zack's school for open house. Not very organized. When we first walked in the door, we told the "greeters" that he was in 6th grade, so they told us to go to the second door on the right. Well after listening to the teachers for about 10 minutes we discovered that we were in the 7th grade classroom. So we had to go to the other end of the school. When we get there, the room is full of people standing on lines to talk to one of the five teachers. So you were supposed to stand on line to talk for 5 minutes to a teacher, then stand on another line to talk to another teacher. What a cluster fuck. Basically, we learned that Zack is doing good in the classes he likes, Math and Science. And poorly in the ones he doesn't like, Reading and Social Studies (just like his dad). I really hope we get a chance to do something for ourselves pretty soon. We have been so busy lately that we are starting to neglect each other. I've been seeing something in her eyes the past few days that I find puzzling. I don't know what to make of it. It made me feel good the other night when we burned the letters. But, on the other hand, I know there is more. I know she still has a picture of him. I've been doing the best that I can, to give her what she wants. For us to be happy. I have been as smiley and as loving as I can, yet I think that she has forgotten that there is something that I told her I could not move forward without. I still feel as if I am hanging on the edge of a cliff with nothing to stand on. All I have been begging for is some solid ground to stand on.
posted by Broken Hubby @ 3:03 AM
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1 Comments:
Couple things here:
First, that's so cool that you guys finally got together to burn some stuff. I know that's been weighing heavily on you.
Second, I know this is going to sound weird, but what about letting Deb keep the picture(s)? I think this might be a good chance for you to say (if you can sincerely say this) that you understand that this person meant something to her, and as long as she is being faithful to you & putting the past behind her, I don't think there's anything wrong with hanging onto a memory. A whole box of memorabilia, on the other hand, would be a bit excessive. I really think that, as much as it has been important for you to know that she's willing to put the past behind her and move on, I don't think that's possible until you're willing to do the same. Here's what it boils down to: if you trust her, and she responds to that & you guys live happily ever after, hey, that's great! If you trust her & she continues to carry on outside the relationship, then at least you've been a big person about it & you can't have any regrets about your own behavior. I know it's easier said than done, but really try to give it a shot. It just might work, and I think that she'll have a lot more respect for a man that has decided to move on & be secure in his relationship with his wife, because he knows he's worth her love, than a jealous husband who never lets go of the past & wants proof and constantly accuses & nags her...you see, I've been on the receiving end of the distrust, and after a while, I wanted to just give up & go screw somebody! I mean, if I was getting accused of it, I may as well get a little strange, right?
Ok, enough on that subject...as far as the school stuff goes, there seems to be a growing issue of constant disorganization everywhere! If you get a chance, go to my blog & click on my sister, Kathy's, if you want to hear a horror story about how crazy schools have become!
Anyway, gotta get back to the grind here - hope you have a great day!
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