Reminders

The other night I came home from work early to dish out a little whoopass on the boys. They were not listening to thier mother at all. I could hear it in her vioce that she was having a tough time dealing with the stress. After everyone was in a better mood we sat down to watch a movie. "Sweet Home Alabama" it was, one of my favories. Well the movie was about half over and I started geting little reminders in every scene right down to the guy's dog. Finally near the end of the movie I could not take it any longer and got up and sat out on the front stoop for the rest of the film. I wish all of these feelings would just go away. I want to be able to feel secure in the knolwdge that my wife is here because she wants to be. Every time I start to feel a little secure, something comes up and slaps me in the face, and back down into the depths of depression I go. Sometimes I think that everyone would be better off without me.